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Ok. So I did a little too much dwelling in a yucky feeling yesterday. But because I had to go be professional I decided not to stay in that feeling. As soon as I decided to do my job I started to feel better. Today I intend to keep an open heart. No closing, defending etc. I access my essential nature, courageous by intending to keep the walls down.

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More brutal honesty. People take it better than I expected. Phathom that!

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I feel so intensely nervous. Taking deep breathes, praying, focusing on the moment. Ok, wheel of freedom, here we go. Onward and upwards!

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I did it. I beat last quarters sales! And I still have one more day to go to finish the retail month. I can hardly believe it. It was a huge risk to present that goal to my boss. I just sent her an email letting her know I made it with a tiny bit of coasting room. I'd love to put it way over the top and close a big one tomorrow!

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I was beating myself up. Then I caught it and said no thank you.

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Confession: I have a particular moral value I violate regularly. It doesn't hurt anyone but me. As I've grown more fearless its been easier to be true to that value.

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Sometimes I get intimidated by certain personalities. Decided to work through it today. Had the lady laughing the whole rest of the appointment.

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Gut wrenching honesty. Ain't holding nothing back. But learning to speak more effectively.

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My dad illness took a turn for the worse because he doesn't like to follow doctor's orders. He's likely dying from lung cancer. I can't stop that. But he is risking some pretty gruesome and painful complications that can only make his last days more painful, difficult and inhibit his ability to enjoy his family visiting. Partly its the medications that have him confused. Partly its denial and believing he knows what's best. I accepted that it's his choice. But for my own sake and the family's I talked to him gently asking him to consider following their directions. Its new for me not to be stressing about it. Before I felt responsible to get him to make good choices. Now I realize my only job is to love him and help him when he needs it. Ultimately he has to choose. I am at peace knowing I did my best to be a good daughter to him today. My risk today is letting go.